Buried terror
By M on Monday 23 October 2006, 01:23 - Background - Permalink
Last night I watched a
program on ABC Television, which dealt with how the advance of dementia is,
uncharacteristically, an agent in uncovering memories, particularly those of
Holocaust survivors. Discovery of this phenomenon has resulted in changes in
the way aged care facilities in Australia work with these survivors.
Most of the survivors never spoke of their Holocaust experiences. For their
children this period was a blank. However, as dementia altered the survivors'
mental landscape, deeply buried anxieties began to resurface. At first these
changes were perceived as unrelated, but in time patterns began to emerge. For
example, being in a bathroom with a shower could bring back memories of the gas
chambers. Food hoarding can be a response to memories of the ghettos. The
locked gates and routines of the dementia wards can bring back the
concentration camps. Strong smelling disinfectants? Delousing. Even waiting in
lines, or seeing uniforms could have adverse effects.
This is thought to be a form of latent post-traumatic stress syndrome. Now, in
some Australian nursing homes staff undergo special training which includes a
visit to the Sydney Jewish Museum to learn about the events of the Holocaust.
There is also talk of enacting a similar program in time to deal with the
survivors of the Khmer Rouge in Cambodia.
I found this all very interesting and wondered if there is anything in it that
can be applied closer to home. My father and grandfathers had war experiences
of a different sort, but at times they were traumatic nevertheless. And the
delayed reaction is something we've observed in all three of them.
When I recently asked Uncle Bob if he could recall any of his father's (my
grandfather's) experiences during WWI, he was able to give me very little,
saying that his father had been reluctant to talk about this period of his
life. However, for most of his later years, granddad was living in Derby with
us; in fact, he moved into my bedroom after I left for college. It was during
these years that he began to open up, and related to Greg a number of chilling
anecdotes about the years he, his brother, and future brother-in-law - who all
served together in the infantry - spent in Flanders.
My other grandfather - also an infantryman in Flanders - survived only to his
fifties, but he too began to open up in his later years, and passed on some
stories, one of them quite devastating, to another of my uncles, who is also
now dead.
And in my dad's case, we can actually pinpoint the time he began to open up
almost to the day. He and mum had been to see the film 'Titanic' that day. I
arrived at the house some time later, after dark. Dad was very
uncharacteristically praising of the film. Then, with no discernable preamble,
he began to talk in detail about the night in February 1942 when the merchant
ship he was serving on as an RAF MSFU ground crewman was torpedoed by a German
U-boat. The story was rivetting for the detail about other men aboard the ship
and the ways they behaved, from the most noble of actions to the most
despicable, when the ship starting sinking, and afterwards, as the men
attempted to save themselves in the sea. Not even mum had heard the details. At
a later stage, dad went even deeper in the story, and talked about how his
friend had died, a scene not unlike the last scene in the film - in which the
character of Jack slips below the surface. It was this that had so obviously
triggered the powerful memory.
It has been very important to me that these long buried memories eventually
came to light and have now been recorded. I do not know why, but there may yet
prove to be a reason. Who knows, one day soon we may find we will have cause to
recall these memories and may need to arrange the present to better insulate it
from the past.

Comments
Or, to include the past in a reflective manner.
I am prompted to wonder, as well, if PTSD memories aren't the only ones to which attention should be paid to calmly order the reality of people in all stages of dementia. Although the intrusion of PTSD memories should probably receive the most urgent attention in intense needs care environments, I am reminded of my mother's dreams, which, to her, are in-the-moment reality. Maybe they are a form of self-instituted therapy, as well, that allow her to continually create for herself a more comfortable reality. It may not be my reality, but, then, when more than one person is present in a defined space there is always more than one reality. When those others are not what we consider to be demented, the rest of us have the ability (sometimes abused, true, but still handy) to automatically accept multiple realities. It is no secret that the more acceptance individual realities receive within a group of people, the more comfortable the individuals feel within the group and the less likely that individual behaviors will be disruptive to the group. Maybe this trick of acceptance is similar to whatever tricks we are trying to discover to accept the realities of the demented among us. Maybe what it takes is a willingess to inform ourselves of the pasts, traumatic or not, of those among us. As we collect and attend to the pasts of those who remain capable of communicating them, I think we'll find many valuable clues that will allow us to cooperate with the possible pasts of those who are no longer able to communicate their own. Excellent reason to record, record, record, while we still can.
Carry on, Mike.