The big question (part 3)
By Mike on Wednesday 31 January 2007, 09:41 - Reference - Permalink
My answer to all of these questions is that I know families could look after the elderly, infirm and demented - it is just that we have organised our society, and our comcomitant lifelong goals, desires and plans, around an image of life that doesn't have these problems. When they do arise, quite naturally, generation after generation, we go into shock and surprise and mouth the words, 'This wasn't meant to happen to me! I've been pretending all my life that this wasn't going to happen!'Mike,
Please understand by leaving that comment, I in no way am implying you need to live up to anything. With this disease, there is such a battering of one's ideals, it's hard to even recognize oneself in what remains.
The fact is Alzheimer's is completely destructive. If our life is a construct of all we have done and failed to do in our lives, Alzheimer's is its deconstruction. And we, the witnesses of our parents dismantling, are left to cobble together, as best we can, a constantly failing system of care. The care and treatment of Alzheimer's patients is severely neglected by society, because it's hidden. When you mention that you are unable to find adequate services for your parents at home, you will be very surprised to find its just as tough to get adequate services in a nursing home. If you feel a pain in your stomach, it may be indigestion, or it may be the feeling one gets when over a barrel. Can't get decent care at home, can't get decent care in a nursing home. All of it, ever last bit of my experience was heart shredding. And what you probably already know, a nursing home's location/cost/experience does not confer quality of care. I am afraid if you were to set up your hidden granny cam in any nursing home - pick one - you would have more information than you could bear.
Are there any opportunities for live-in care at your parents' home? Where a person might be able to move in, care for your parents and earn a living wage doing so? Are there other families attached to the elders at the day care who could pool resources and live together with the help of live-in caregivers? In my experience, one experienced caregiver could provide care for 3-4 Alzheimer's patients, but not more than that. When I hear numbers like one caregiver for eight patients, I laugh out loud at the ludicrousness of the proposition. It is impossible. Unthinkable.
I am no expert, but I have a hunch we will find no "official" help that will be acceptable to us. I think quality care will only be found by organizing dedicated family members, friends and hired caregivers to help and pooling resources with others in the same boat. By combining other families, and setting up systems of care, sharing the load, there may be some truth to the strength to handle this disease being found in our numbers.
The question is, who would do the organizing? Who would put the systems in place? Who would start the process? Who would see that it works?
Then I have this question. If one family/group can make it work, can it be duplicated? Can it be offered as a guide to other families? Can we start putting together success stories, where families pull together instead of apart because they've found a way that can work?
And then, is this idea impossible or are we just led to believe that it's impossible? You are a system's person. Does it seem that impossible to you? I believe we are built/designed to love and care for our parents. I believe it is a natural part of our innate structure to care for the very young and the very old. I believe it is very doable, but we haven't figured it out quite right in this day and age. But I think we can. Especially with the technology available to us. Web cams, instant messaging, the power of blogging to connect one person in sunny Florida with another person in frigid Colorado with another clear across the world in New Zealand. If we can do that surely we can keep our parents safe and sound, even in their addled, demented final years.
And then my last question, why can't it work? Why can't we make it work? Why can't this be done? Not by government, not by social services, not by countries, but by children who happen to love their parents? You know how many families are going through this?
Nursing homes have made a fortune off of our stupidity and lack of organization. We can change that. We can ignore them and build a better way to care for family members when they're old. If we don't do this, who will? Who should do this, if not us?
Just some thoughts, based on my own constant "what if"-ing.
Patty - stepping down off her shaky, wobbly, soapbox...
I get the impression that for close family to take the full burden of care for the demented would require such tectonic shifts in society that it would be of a scale with our coming, tortured, decades-long, attempts to kick the oil habit.
I wrote back to Patty:
I think you are right that the community, with a little bit of reorganisation, could probably provide superior care to its elderly. I envisage a village of about 15 huts. Little children who are too young to work in the fields play with their grandparents and great-grandparents, and come running to their parents sometimes: 'Come quickly! Granddad's gone oft into the woods!' Older children lead them back. If grandma wanders into the wrong house, someone just shoos her out the door and points out the right one.
Instead, we've made our neighbourhoods so dangerous by mixing traffic with housing, We lock kids away, either at home or in school, and none of us gets introduced to dementia until we have to, so many of us grow up thinking of it as something rather distasteful and shameful. We move away from home as adults, and then add great distances to all the other problems.
When we were younger, my mother looked after her father as well as her own children. It added to the work considerably, but if she had been paid what we now contemplate paying a nursing home for similar services - she would have thought she'd found heaven!
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Here, here. This is exactly why, once my mother dies, I will not put my energies toward addressing the global elder care situation, but rather, our tangled economic-social perceptions and how they are shredding our ability to be humane. I may get no further than we've gotten with elder care in the last couple of centuries...especially since, when my mother dies, I will be poor, frightened and scrambling in a country that believes I will have gotten what I deserve, but, you know, I'm counting on the possibility that there is enough truth in the following two saws to sustain me long enough to do that of which I long ago dreamed:
1. When you hit bottom, there is nowhere to go but up;
2. When you lose your life in the service of love, you save yourself as well as the object of your love.
Although I hate what humanity is becoming, I love being human. I sense I am not the only person living out this curious predicament. When my mother is dead, I think I will be prepared to lose my life on behalf of my love of this astonishing, awe-ful state of existence, since I will have lost my life once and will no longer be afraid of losing it again and again.
How strange, the origins of bravery.
hi mike,
wanted to let you know how much your blog means to me -- i've been lurking for about a month -- and have been shy about making contact....but today i believe it is time for me to step out of the shadows and shout out my hello and many, many, thanks. i typically either being or end my day with checking in to your blog and working my way through some of the archives....and i must say that sometimes your blog --- or, rather, YOU -- your presence and grit and humanity in every line -- are the only thing saving me from the feeling that i am totally alone and that no one "gets it". i can't begin to put into words how much that means to me.....it is truly like lighting a candle instead of cursing the darkness. so thank you for the blog -- and for your warm heart and nimble brain. (i am on the east coast of the US and am the primary caregiver for my 83 year old grandmother who has late early stage or early mid stage dementia -- probably AD but still unclear. there are all sorts of similarities to you/your story......for instance, like your mum, my granny cared for her father for 6 years in the midst of having babies/raising small children.)
i was particularly moved today -- as i often am by your renderings -- by your vision of the village and the grandkids keeping the grandparents out of harm's way. truly a gorgeous vision. i was raised in large part by my gran and gramps --- and have remained quite close to them (and now her since his death 5 years ago). it seems like the most natural thing in the world to be on site to help her now......and for a moment i imagined myself as one of those village children steering her grandparent out of danger....so thank you for that.....because, too, this feels like the hardest thing i've ever done and the biggest thing and it's nice, very nice, beyond nice, to know you are out there. thank you.
i'm sorry you're grappling with such a tough decision just now. but i know that your calm insight and steady poise will lead you to a good decision....
...and may we all open our hearts to transform humanity so the world you envision (and people like me still believe in!) can become a reality.
with deep gratitude,
anna
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