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Thursday 1 February 2007

The big question (part 4)

I must admit I was a little puzzled not to have heard from my brother Derek in response to the 'big question' posts. Then, on second thoughts, I calculated that he was unlikely to say anything until he knew what he wanted to say - and on this particular subject that doesn't happen instantaneously. Sure enough, yesterday I got a rather good email from him, which I reproduce here:

Mike,

I have been watching you blog for the past few days but wanted to chew things over before replying.

Looking at your four goals, it occurs to me that goal two is probably the key.

It is easy for me to say that the main criterion for deciding the timing of placing Mum and Dad in a home has to be the well being of you, Rachel and Greg, because I won’t have to physically move them. I will not have to sell the house and contents, take Mum and Dad to the home, leave them there and then carry the departure image with me. I will not have to live with the knowledge that I physically placed my parents in a home. I will not have to endure the inevitable pleas to take them away from the ‘hateful place’ and back to a home which no longer exists. I,therefore, see this decision as being a balance between the stress which you suffer as a result of their remaining at home (together with any potential guilt which may arise if they injure themselves) and the feelings which may well arise if they go into an institution.

Clearly, the fact of having this discussion means that the wellbeing of Mum and Dad is an issue which needs to be considered but I think that the context given above is important, not to say crucial. Having said this, I am unsure how one measures ‘wellbeing’ for AD sufferers unless it is the absence of stress as the disease progresses. In this situation maybe death is the ultimate state of low stress and thus of wellbeing!

When Janet and I were leaving the UK to live in Tokyo I took Rebecca, then aged 15, to stay with friends as a paying guest for about 12 months. I shall never forget how lost she looked sitting in her room, surrounded by her belongings and among people whom she knew but who, in this context, were strangers. I still feel guilty after 18 years and I have had the advantage of being able to talk to Rebecca, subsequently, and express my regret.

Any distress being suffered by Mum and Dad will be over in a few years, but any guilt which you, Rachel or Greg carry may go on for much longer.

I was interested to read your analysis of your feelings for Mum and Dad as well as your more general musing on the nature of love. It was as though I was listening to my own thoughts.

Regards

Derek

Well, I took everything he said very seriously. In fact, many of the comments that have been left over the last few days have also struck very resonant notes. It has been so far a very worthwhile exercise trying to think aloud in public.

Tuesday 30 January 2007

Love

Not so long ago there was a comment by Patty Doherty on this blog. It concerned itself with love - mine for my parents. This comment provoked much thinking on my part - doubts that I'd like to try to get straight, if I can.

In the beginning, I can vaguely recall, our mother did tell us she loved us. This was when Greg and I were very small. I remember that when we first asked 'what does "marry" mean?', mum explained it along these lines: it's when you grow up and love a lady so much you want to spend the rest of your life with her. Greg and I instantly came to the same thought: when we grew up we would both marry mum!

Thereafter, I cannot remember love being mentioned very much at all. Sometime during my teens mum tried to steer me on the straight and narrow by occasionally saying 'I might love you, Mike, but sometimes I don't like you very much.' This was on occasions when she thought I'd been particularly selfish or mean, and I now see it as her way of dealing with a family that was emotionally much harder than she was. It was her way of trying to bring me to my senses, but I can remember even at the time seeing the emotional blackmail for what it was, and discounting it accordingly. At times I infuriated her by taunting, 'I know you don't mean that, mum. I know I'm your favourite.'

A few months ago, while she was still living in Queensland, Rachel called and had one of those stop-start conversations with mum, who seemed to hardly know who she was talking to. At the end of the conversation there was a pause and mum said 'I love you.' It came as quite a surprise, since mum hadn't used these words for as long as Rachel could remember, if at all. Rachel replied, 'I love you too, mum,' and told me about it soon afterwards. As she wasn't sure if mum knew who she was talking to, it was uncertain whether she meant what she said. I think we concluded that she may as well treat mum's words as literal truth.

But what about the other side of the coin? Do I love my parents? For a long time I have really questioned whether I do love them - primarily because there seems to be little evidence of it.  When I look inside I don't find any warm or soft feelings at all. I don't seem to find anything much, if the truth be known. There is no conscious motivation, other than a sense of doing what is right, governing my actions towards mum and dad. When they didn't need any help I pretty well left them to their own devices, and my visits were primarily to satisfy my own requirements. When mum and dad die I expect to feel a certain sense of simplification, but I find it hard to imagine grief, heartbreak, sorrow, or anything of that ilk. We will just have to wait and see.

Perhaps this is all just introspective self-indulgence. It seems nobody really knows. But in regard to mum and dad I am reminded, somewhat incongruously, of the words of the Howard Jones song, 'What is love?':

And maybe love is letting people be just what they want to be
The door always must be left unlocked
To love when circumstance may lead someone away from you
And not to spend the time just doubting

Sunday 21 January 2007

Inherited forgetting

I heard through the grapevine that an American publication is preparing an article on the genetic form or forms of Alzheimer's disease. Despite the fact that I have two parents diagnosed with the disease, and a strong possibility that my only grandparent who lived to any significant age also suffered, I am pretty sanguine about the chance of 'inheriting' the disease for reasons that are outlined in the correspondence below. My family exchanged a few emails on this subject just after we learnt that dad had Alzheimer's. I'm taking the opportunity to collect the correspondence here.

First, I wrote as follows to Derek (1 Jul 2006):

I told the Psychogeriatrician that you had been concerned about the hereditary implications of having two parents with Alzheimer's disease. She pointed me towards research on the allele Apoliprotein E. Her suggested search string was 'Apo E allele status'. I've tried it, and learnt that there appears to be a weak correlation between onset of Alzheimer's and the type 4 allele of this gene. I don't know if it is worth testing for it.

She also gave me a paper to give to you. It is a summary of the research into risk and protective factors for the disease. I've since found it on the web, at

http://www.alzheimers.org.au/upload/DementiaPreventedSept05.pdf

There seems to be a problem with the PDF file, but I was able to download it in HTML form. It is pretty readable. Much of it is rather inconclusive, though a couple of glasses of wine per day and a generally healthy lifestyle seem to do you a lot of good.

I followed this up with another email later in the month (26 Jul 2006):

As for the e4 allele of the Apo E gene, it appears that it has only a WEAK correlation with Alzheimer's (AD), it has not been identified as a cause. Having only one copy is correlated with AD. Without knowing how common the e4 allele is, it is impossible to give even approximate odds. However, I did read somewhere that about 11% of people have it.

  • about half of all AD cases have e4 - a 25% chance that both mum and dad have at least one copy of e4
  • e4 is associated with early onset AD - suggests that neither mum nor dad have e4
  • it seems e4 is anti-correlated with retinal deterioration - mum probably has it, dad probably doesn't
  • if you have e4 you have a 25-40% lifetime chance of getting AD - not much more than anyone who lives long

I found that a google search using

"apo e" incidence ad

produced a good selection of web pages.

[NB: I then included a text without noting its source. I've now found something very similar at (http://www.essaysample.com/essay/000454.html). It seems to give a good introduction to the main AD issues.]

ALZHEIMER'S DISEASE

We are currently living in the age of technology. Our advancements in the past few decades overshadow everything learned in the last 2000 years. With the elimination of many diseases through effective cures and treatments, Canadians can expect to live a much longer life then that of their grandparents. In 1900 about 4% of the Canadian population was over the age of 65. In 1989 that figure tripled to 12% and the government expects that figure to rise to 23% by the year 2030 (Medical, 1991, p.13). This increase has brought with it a large increase in diseases associated with old age. Alzheimer's dementia is one of the most common and feared diseases afflicting the elderly community. AD, once thought to be a natural part of aging, is a severely debilitating form of mental dementia. Although some other types of dementia are curable or effectively treatable, there is currently no cure for the Alzheimer variety.

A general overview of Alzheimer's disease including the clinical description, diagnosis, and progression of symptoms, helps one to further understand the treatment and care of patients, the scope of the problem, and current research.

The clinical definition of dementia is "a deterioration in intellectual performance that involves, but is not limited to, a loss in at least 2 of the following areas: language, judgement, memory, visual or depth perception, or judgement interfering with daily activities" (Institute, 1996, p.4).

The initial cause of AD symptoms is a result of the progressive deterioration of brain cells (neurons) in the cerebral cortex of the brain. This area of the brain, which is the largest and uppermost portion, controls all our thought processes, movement, speech, and senses. This deterioration initially starts in the area of the cortex that is associated with memory and then progresses into other areas of the cortex, then into other areas of the brain that control bodily function. The death of these cells causes an interruption of the electrochemical signals between neurons that are a key to cognitive as well as bodily functioning.

Currently AD can only be confirmed at autopsy. After death the examined brain of an Alzheimer victim shows two distinct characteristics. The first is the presence of neuritic plaques in the cerebral cortex and other areas of the brain including cerebral blood vessels. These plaques consist of groups of neurons surrounded by deposits of beta-amyloid protein. The presence of these plaques is also common to other types of dementia.

The second characteristic, neurofibliary tangles, is what separates AD from all other forms of dementia. Neurofibliary tangles take place within the disconnected brain cells themselves. When examined under a microscope diseased cells appear to contain spaghetti-like tangles of normally straight nerve fibers. The presence of these tangles was first discovered in 1906 by the German neurologist Alois Alzheimer, hence the name Alzheimer's disease.

Although the characteristics listed above are crucial to the diagnosis of AD upon death, the clinical diagnosis involves a different process. The diagnosis of AD is only made after all other illnesses, which may have the same symptoms, are ruled out. The initial symptoms of AD are typical of other treatable diseases therefore doctors are hesitant to give the diagnosis of Alzheimer's in order to save the patient from the worsening of a treatable disease through a misdiagnosis. Some of the initial symptoms include an increased memory loss, changes in mood, personality, and behavior, symptoms that are common of depression, prescription drug conflict, brain tumors, syphilis, alcoholism, other types of dementia, and many other conditions.

The onset of these symptoms usually brings the patient to his family doctor. The general practitioner runs a typical battery of urinalysis and blood tests that he sends off to the lab. If thetests come back negative, and no other cause of the symptoms is established, the patient is then refereed to a specialist. The specialist, usually a psychiatrist, will then continue to rule out other possible illnesses through testing. If the next battery of tests also comes back negative then the specialist will call on a neurologist to run a series of neurological examinations including a PET and CAT scan to rule out the possibility of brain tumors. A spinal tap is also performed to determine the possibility of other types of dementias. The patient will also undergo a complete psychiatric evaluation. If the patient meets the preliminary criteria for AD an examination of the patients medical history is also necessary to check for possible genetic predispositions to the disease.

The psychiatric team finally meets with the neurological team to discuss their findings. If every other possible disease is ruled out, and the results of the psychiatric evaluation are typical to that of a person with AD, the diagnosis of Alzheimer's disease is given.

The initial symptoms of AD are usually brushed off as a natural part of aging. The myth that a person's memory worsens over time is just that - a myth (Myers, 1996, p.100-101). AD's victims are mostly over the age of 65 and many delay treatment by attributing their problems to age. A victim might forget a well known phone number or miss an important appointment. These symptoms eventually escalate to the total disintegration of personality and all patients end up in total nursing care. In descending order, the patient goes from

  1. decreased ability to handle a complex job to
  2. decreased ability to handle such complex activities of daily life as
  3. managing finances,
  4. complex meal preparation and
  5. complex marketing skills. Next comes
  6. loss of ability to pick out clothing properly,
  7. or to put on clothing properly, followed by
  8. loss of ability to handle the mechanics of bathing properly. Then
  9. progressive difficulties with continence and
  10. toileting occur, followed by
  11. very limited speech ability and
  12. inability to speak more than a single word. Next comes
  13. loss of ambulatory capability. Last to go are such basic functions as
  14. sit up
  15. smile and
  16. hold up one's head (Brassard, 1993, p.10).

The average time from diagnosis to inevitable death is 8 years. The family of the victim is usually able to care for the victim for an average period of about 4 years (Alzheimer's, 1996, p.44).During the progression of the disease between 10% and 15% of patients hallucinate and suffer delusions, 10% will become violent and 10% suffer from seizures (Alzheimer's, 1996, p.46).

Once a person is diagnosed as having AD, an assessment is made of the disease's stage of progression and of the strengths and weaknesses of the victim and the victim's family. There are different types of assessments available to evaluate the level of dysfunction of the patient. Based on one of these assessments a care plan is put together by a team consisting of a family member, a paid or unpaid care provider, and the victim's physician. Throughout the progression of the disease, and depending on the needs of the patient, a wide range of expensive medication, such as psychoactive drugs to lift depression and sedatives to control violence, may be required.

Unfortunately, although a wide range of treatments have been tested, most prove to be ineffective. At the beginning of the disease the family is able to look after the patient without much effort. Frequently families will hire a care giver in order to alleviate some of the work.

Simple changes in the home can make life much easier for the sufferer, help them keep their self esteem, and prolong their stay at home. Examples of low-cost modifications to the environment include reducing the noise levels in the home (telephones, radios, voices, etc.); avoiding vividly patterned rugs and drapes; placing locks up high or down low on doors leading outside (AD sufferers are known to wander off); clearing floors of clutter; reducing the contents of closets in order to simplify choices (Alzheimer, 1992, p.17). These costs are paid for by the victim's family. Many of these, and other more expensive modifications are introduced in long-term care settings. They help in maintaining the safety and security of the victim as well as reducing their confusion.

The patient's and the family's condition should be assessed every six months (Alzheimer, 1992, p.21). In response to constantly changing needs, the aspects of care must be constantly modified. Other issues that usually arise during the care of the patient are assessment of the competence of the victim, power of attorney, and response to and prevention of abuse (Aronson, 1988, p.124). Eventually the victim's condition deteriorates to the point where home care is no longer possible and they must be moved to a long-term care facility.

In Canada care, support and information for victims and their families comes from the health care system and the Alzheimer's Society of Canada. The care giver must obtain information and education about the disease in order to effectively care for the victim. During the course of the disease victims might wander, hallucinate, become suspicious. This behavior can place a large strain on the care giver as well as causing depression and deterioration of their own health (Aronson, 1988, p.132). An AD support group is crucial to alleviating some of the stress on the care giver. Through a support group the care giver is given the emotional and practical help needed to accomplish the large task of looking after the victim for as long as possible.

Currently there are 300,000 persons in Canada with AD. This figure is more than that of Parkinson's disease, cancer and multiple sclerosis combined. With continuous growth in the percentage of Canadians over the age of 65, this figure could hit 700,000 by the year 2020 (Carlton, 1996, p.17). These large and increasing figures translate into a large burden on the health care system. Even when using the most conservative estimates of the average number of years spent in an institution and the number of afflicted Canadians, the costs to health care are immense. At $33,000 (1989) per patient per year in an institution and with an average stay of three years until death, the cost of AD will amount to $3 billion over the next three years; and if the entry into the disease state remains constant, it will cost the Canadian taxpayer [an added] $1 billion per year thereafter. (Brassard, 1993, p.11)

There have been many studies that conclude that the number of incidences of AD is on the rise. A very high incidence was reported in a U.S. survey conducted in East Boston by the Harvard Medical school. It showed the incidence of AD to be 3% for people between the ages of 65-74, 18.7% for those between 75-84, and 47.2% for those over 84 (Evans, 1989, p.4).

AD is a democratic disease. It affects persons of both sexes and all races and ethnic backgrounds. The major risk factors for AD are age and heredity. Persons with a high incidence of AD in their family history are most susceptable.

A specific subtype of AD exists that is solely connected to heredity. This subtype is known as Familial Alzheimer's disease (FAD). FAD is also known as Early Onset Alzheimer's disease, named so because its symptoms start to develop much earlier than in the regular sporadic type. Only 5%-10% of all cases are of this type. FAD is suspected when AD can be traced over several generations and there is a history of, among previously affected family members, a similar age of onset and duration of the disease (usually 4 years). Approximately 50% of the children of an affected parent go on to develop the disease (Pollen, 1993, p.89).

Much research has been conducted in an attempt to locate the gene that is responsible for FAD. Currently, researchers have isolated genes 1, 14, and 21 (Alzheimer's, 1996, p.36), however, the evidence still remains inconclusive (Statement, 1996, p.2). There is also a possibility that a specific genetic mutation merely puts a person at risk to the disease and AD is triggered by an external force e.g. a head injury. (Statement, 1996, p.4). Finding the specific location of the gene will pave the way for a diagnostic or even predictive test for FAD. Similar genetic tests already exist for cystic fibrosis and muscular dystrophy. Locating the AD gene will also allow scientists to study why the particular gene is not functioning properly and may give clues to treatment and cure. The long term goal of this research is the same as that of any other genetic research and that is gene therapy - which is the possibility that science could one day alter our genetic make-up.

The other much more common type of AD is Sporadic Alzheimer's Disease (SAD). This includes all other types of the disease which are not linked to heredity. Genetic research is also playing a major role in the progress towards a diagnostic or predictive test for SAD. Recently, a gene involved in the transport of cholesterol has been identified to be associated with AD. Apolipoprotein E is located on chromosome 19 and seems to contribute to the susceptibility of a person to AD (Statement, 1996, p.6). The gene exists in three different forms or alleles (Apo E 2,3,4) and each person has a combination of two of the three. Thus an individual can have any one of the following combinations: Apo E 2/2, 3/3, 4/4, 2/3/, 3/4 or 2/4. Researchers have found a relationship between the number of copies of the 4 allele and the person's probability of developing the disease.

The same day, Rebecca wrote as follows to her father Derek:

Remember about apoe 2 3 and 4, I think the text book I left behind will give you a good flavour - also re alcohol & dementia, as far as I am aware there is only one systematic review so far and it's not finished yet. Don't worry, if you can all hold off dementing till I finish writing up you'll know about 90% of the risk factors!

If Mike is interested I'm happy to send him any copies of what I have.

Also worth remembering that AD can't be diagnosed until post mortem and most cases diagnosed in life have vascular factors found after death so it's not nearly straight forward - anyway I think granddad is more likely a mixture - read the ftD and the lewy body chapters and remember his hallucinations...

I then emailed her as follows (27 Jul 2006):

The more I learn about it, the more I also suspect dad may well have vascular dementia as well. He's had a series of vascular problems, as we all know, and the dementia seemed to cut in so fast. As you say, we'll never know until we get their brains in our hands! Meanwhile, Aricept courses began for both of them today. The nurse will come around to the house every morning and make sure they take their pills.

Yes, I would be interested in reading anything you feel like passing around, including a draft of your thesis.

She then emailed me some of her papers and draft thesis chapters on risk factors.

The upshot of all this is that, whether or not you have genes associated with Alzheimer's disease, you should be doing what you already know you ought to do: eat well, stay active, avoid smoking, etc.

Tuesday 5 December 2006

Expect the unexpected

I contacted Lana, our case manager, and assured her that I would be available to take mum out during the afternoon tomorrow, allowing one of the careworkers to get into the house and give it a clean.

I hope to succeed this week where Rachel failed last. The key difference, in which I am putting my trust, is familiarity. Rachel's years in Queensland have coincided with mum's decline into dementia. The unfortunate effect of this appears to be that mum's mental image of Rachel is more tenuous than those of Greg and I. Mum would not open the door to Rachel last week. If the same thing happens to me tomorrow it will be a first, another depressing milestone on a forever descending path.

The bigger question, which I am sure Rachel considers frequently, is whether mum will ever develop or recapture an easy familiarity with her, given time. Or is it too late already? Is Rachel just the first of us to slip into the 'miscellaneous persons' category?

There have been signs. Greg and I have both been treated oddly at times, and Derek's still greater distance has meant that even dad has trouble fitting him into his current wobbly image of the family. I think all we could conclude from Derek's visit this year was that mum was aware that Derek was somehow known to her, or was at least known to the rest of us. What puts fresh doubts in my mind is the ease with which both mum and dad accepted the two new careworkers, Carol and Jennifer, as my 'friends'. And how quick they were to assume that they had a pre-existing acquaintance with them. It suggests that with the right prompting, mum and dad could be led to believe almost anything about anybody. Indeed, mum seems to switch between trust and distrust, anger and affection, with disconcerting rapidity. We're learning to expect the unexpected.

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